Doldrums with a Side of the Funk

It has been a month since my last blog post. A month?!?!? I rarely go that long without an update, even a brief something. My twitter activity has slowed. My Facebook updates have almost completely stopped. My running... Sigh.

A few weeks ago I woke up dizzy. I was dizzy for the better part of the day. The next day I was planning on a long run. After five miles I stopped to refill my water bottle and I felt like I was going to black-out. You know how you can get a head rush if you stand up too fast sometimes? It was like that. It scared me enough to end my run then. The last thing I want to do is pass out while I'm on the treadmill.

I made it to the doctor on that Tuesday and she said I had some fluid in my middle ear. The dizziness lasted until the following Saturday.

The next week, I wanted to run, but I just couldn't bring myself to do get it done.

The whole week.

This past week wasn't much better. Four miles on Tuesday was all I had in me. Wednesday night I was asleep by 8:45 PM and on Friday I laid down at 7:50 PM.

Physically, other than being tired, I feel fine. I just haven't had the mental wherewithal to get it done.

I see people out for their runs and I want to run too. I'm jealous that people are out there and I'm not.

I'm worried about losing the fitness I have worked so hard to get back since November when things weren't going so smoothly on the running front.

Things piked up and were going well. I had great runs at Disney and was feeling especially confident after those races. No PRs there, but I felt like I was making leaps and bounds and it the last three weeks PPFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. It's all gone.

My confidence is shaky but I know that I need to and that I can turn this around.

I had originally planned on the North Carolina Marathon, but due to a scheduling conflict, it was a no-go. My plans shifted to the Flying Pig, but now I'm not sure about that. The next week or two should determine if I can do it.

This week will be complicated by travel. But I'm ready to shake the doldrums and run away from this funk hanging over me.